hais. i'm clueless & lost. it seems like i adding more stress to jie instead of reducing her stress ya. i've been thinking alot too. am i a burden in ur life ?_?
is e shOp of ours realli possible or just a wilful n stupid thinking of mine. i realli hope we can quickly settle it n next month or so . we just jolly well happily have a dream shop of ours. i still recall e first time we met out for discussion finding shops & discussing its was so wonderful where by i tink tat there is reali hope & 1OO% our dreams will come true & i'm so anxious till i keep going ard websites & find out more. & e 2nd times is where by u came my hse we sort out e menu ... & i so confirm we can suceed ya. coz. u once say when we work tgt, nth is impossible. & u said we must work tgt , work hard for betta life betta future. i'm so happy ya. tat though still ard 1 to 2 months for our shoppy, but... i willing to wait thou alot ppl tat despice me. ask me stop dreaming it wun come true. but i hold on to it. coz i trust u jie. but today when i read ya blog u seem depress coz i realise i'm nth compare to ryan ya~ i guess one day or even nw u will back to ryan n let me go. i'm scare but i cant do anything. + u said. u realli wish to open shop of our own. but u say alittle impossible is it tat i read in a wrong way or misunderstand. i dunno wor. i'm clueless. i'm realli back to square nw. i dunn wanna add more stress to ya jie. but....... hais.... i dunno.. isit our dream shop realli impossible??? or just a wildful Thinking... or am i thinking too much like some says me. haish.. scared.. & scare we wun be close anymore. when ryan is back. haish.coz i tink i'm just a normal ger tat is not so important to ya. haish. & guess one day u will just let me go. & all efforts gone.. i even went webby search for e kitchen for us to try out our experiments sob~.~ i dun wana add stress to ya jie.. muacks & love ya. take care

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